Friday, April 30, 2010

A beautiful end to a not so beautiful week

This week brings back memories and a flood of emotions all relating to my mom. My mom was diagnosed with lung cancer in August 2007 and after a short battle with it, she passed away on April 26, 2008. My world completely changed when she was diagnosed with cancer. I began taking her to her doctor's appointments (which were many!) and I ended up having to put Ella in daycare so that I could be with mom while she was in and out of the hospital. Even though that season in my life was incredibly rough, I will always appreciate the many hours that I spent with her in those last months. The chemotherapy treatments and Chappy's Deli afterwards... the determination of her to go Christmas shopping even though she was having severe chemo side effects... Ella spending the night with her... seeing her drive up my driveway in that Honda Pilot with her little toboggan on... her not wanting to leave the house because we had been chit chatting and just enjoying ourselves... her watching me turn 30... her watching me scurry to prepare Thanksgiving at my house... her watching me decorate my house for Christmas... taking her to rehab to work on her shoulder... visiting her in CVICU, holding her hand and singing to her... listening to her about her visit to Australia overnight while she was in CVICU... taking her home from the hospital... telling her it's ok to let go... and finally, watching her let go.

I love you mom. Always.

His mercies are new every morning! I woke up this morning to a smiling baby boy's face, my husband getting ready for work and the glorious sun shining outdoors. I hear the pitter patter of Ella's footsteps downstairs and it's moments like these that let me know that seasons come and go. And no matter what, we must praise Him during the stormy weather and the sunny weather. So, what started off as a week reflecting on the storm of mom's final months is ending in a beautiful way. I am truly blessed and I praise God for my undeserved blessings.

1 comment:

  1. What a beautiful post. I experienced many of the same things you did when my Mom was sick. They were such difficult times, but ones I will always cherish.
    I thank God for His everyday blessings, just like you. It gets me through each day.
    Bless you!